Isn’t that just great? Yeah, totally. I love it when my editor just starts posting all over Facebook about everything I have to write in the next 5 days…

Especially when last week she told me I was supposed to be writing something entirely different, and now I’ve got interviews scheduled with all the wrong people, and I’m sure she won’t be happy when she finds out.

That honestly just stressed me out way more than I needed to be right now. And it doesn’t help that I can’t listen to the new Taylor Swift song until tomorrow.

Maybe the relaunch? Hopefully? That would make me day!

Then again, maybe it shouldn’t….NaNo’s in a month and I haven’t a clue what I’m doing yet.

Just do it.

There’s the easy advice to give, now for the hard part. Don’t do it the way I did it, which is creep the person out because you unintentionally make it sound like your stalking him. Which I’m not. I swear.

Basically, there’s a boy that I have multiple classes with, and I recently found out that he’s lived down the street from me practically my whole life. But I’ve never seen him, which makes me question whether or not he’s been like, locked up the attic for the past ten years. Anyway, he’s appearently gone to private school up until now, though I do know his sister, who’s a few years younger than I am. I just didn’t know it was his sister. Though I should have, because they look remarkably alike.

Anyway, I tried starting a conversation with him, which would have worked, except for the fact that he’s extremely shy, and I basically started it in the weird way that stalkers do, with that awkward “I know where you live.” I sort of freaked him out. But he did say to me in the hallway after that, so I took that as a good sign.

Later, he gave me his number-another good sign. Not that he’s texted me yet, but I’m okay with that as I have no idea what I’m going to talk about with him. We’ll see where this goes. I just hope he’s not still creeped out by the fact that I know where he lives, and I know his sister, and I know all this stuff about him that I probably shouldn’t know.

I mean, it’s not like I rode past his house on my bike four times yesterday. That would be crazy. Right?

Rewriting You Belong With Me so that I can use my new lyrics to ask a guy to homecoming as friends because my boyfriend can’t go…..oh wait, I’m wayyyyyyyy too scared to ever do that. But it’s still fun imagining. And I must say, I think I like my lyrics a lot better.

“I’m standin here it’s a typical Friday night

we’re watching a sport that she doesn’t like

and she’ll never understand this like I do.

but she’s a senior, I’m a freshman

she’s cheer captian and I work on broadcast”

I am seriously about to start jumping up and down right now!!!!!! Our high school football team had their second home game this week, and we won!!!!!! That’s not why I’m happy though. My journalism class had to film it, and I got to have a huge part in it, even though I’m only a freshman, which is so cool. YAY!!!!!!!

Being sick is no fun. It’s really not. Especially when you have nothing to really entertain you. Except an English paper to write. But I can procrastinate and do that tomorrow.

And I just discovered that if I blow air up towards my nose, it makes a whistling sound. I really don’t have much to do, do I? Oh, my life can be pathetic.

So, my last post was kind of a rant about my lovely friends and how they’ve all kind of abandoned me. But, change isn’t bad. Don’t get the wrong idea. I’ve been in high school for 10 days now, 10 days, and I’ve changed more in the last two weeks than I have in practically my whole life.

And it’s a good thing. I’m so much more outgoing, and I’ve learned to not care what other people think. I’ve been trying my whole life to do that, and it just happened. And I’m totally okay. It feels a little weird sometimes, like I’m lost in my own mind, but then there are other times when I feel like I’m still the same person. And that’s because as much as you change, or try to change, you’ll still stay the same in so many other ways. I still love country music. That’s something that will never change. I love Disney movies and fairy tales. I can never ever ever resist a chocolate chip cookie. Like, ever (anyone get the reference?). I’m still a hopeless romantic. And a perfectionist. And I’m okay with it. Those things will never change, and I don’t really want them to.

So, I’ll let my friends move on. I’ll move on myself. And I’ll meet people that will be a part of my life, and the new me. Some people are only meant to be in your life for a short time, and that’s okay. Others will be there your whole life. You just have to find those people.

~Maddie

Alright, it’s been close to a week since I’ve posted, but in my defense, I’ve been busy. Anyway, I learned something new recently. And that is that friends don’t stay the same in high school. I’ve been great friends with the same people since elementary school. We were great friends through middle school too. But that’s all changed. Granted, my best friend is my boyfriend (we’ve known each other since we were little kids), so I’m not including him in this. But, out of everyone else, I lost them all. My closest friend since pre-school went to private school. The others go to my school but….

Three of them have an entirely different schedules than me. So I don’t see them. The one girl has a twin sister though, who I do see at lunch, but she won’t talk to me, or sit with me. Why, I don’t know. Another girl that I’ve been friends with since 4th grade has two classes with me, and happens to sit next to me in both of them, due to how it worked out with alphabetical orders, and she ignores me the whole time. Everytime I talk to her, it’s like “Hey Maddie what’s-oh, wait, hold on for the next 45 minutes while I talk to people that I’ve decided are cooler than you.” -_- I was friends with another girl, but we both happened to like the same guy a few years ago, and now it’s really awkward for both of us, especially since she’s going out with him, and even though I don’t like him anymore, we still talk, and it’s a bit weird. Plus, I don’t see her all that much.

People change. It’s something you have to accept. And the lesson that I’m going to teach you here is that you should change too. Not drastically, but go out and talk to new people. I’ve started to make friends. And even though it seems like they still have friends who haven’t changed, I think it’s possible to become close with them.

And it’s never too late to make friends. You might be in your senior year, but if you go up to someone you haven’t talked to for the past three years, you might discover you met someone who’s really awesome and cool and a lifetime friend. They might even be the best man or maid of honor at your wedding. You don’t know. So take a chance. When people you thought you trusted abandon you, do something about it.

~Maddie

P.S. Sorry this was a rant.

-Homework

-Football game

-Sleep

-Facebook

-Movies

-Sleep

-Do a little writing

-Hang out with my boyfriend

And, most improtantly:

-Sleep